Birthday thoughts

When I was born seventy years ago little did I know of what the future held. I remember my grandfather Leonard who loved me so much, would just sit  and listen to a little girls chatter, while opening a Hershey's chocolate bar. After the chocolate bar was devoured, he would take out his big red handy, wipe my mouth, tell me to swallow good and then spit out the rest. He said" Jukee, don't tell your mother that you had a chocolate bar" and I didn't...mother later said when she found out about these bars..."I wondered why you didn't eat your dinner like I know how you liked to eat" lol. Memories are good. They come flooding back when times are needed. I love my family, miss my son who is with God. He would be here for my birthday saying," now you know I can't let something important keep me away" such a good son but "why" is something that I struggle with and will the rest of my life. God knows and He cares. I trust Him and His infinite wisdom. Our daughter Windy in on her way home , she said" I can't let my mother have a birthday and not be there" . When I found our that I was pregnant for a third time, my heart was happy yet hesitant of a third child. "What were going to do?" We can't afford another child, but GOD knew the future, if it had not been for our third child, we would not have enjoyed our retirement, traveling to and fro visiting each one and seeing God 's world. He would be here also but I understand his commitment to his family providing a living so they can be productive in this world. God knows and cares for each one . I love you, Windy, Vann and Jeff.   God knows their hearts and He cares for them. Thank you God for giving them to me. Humm...girly chatter...thanks grandpa Leonard for listening.