Last night I was watching the ballgame being played in Miami. That is my hometown. You could see the wind blowing against the sleeves of players uniforms, making the sleeves flutter in the night. I just melted.
Memories flooded back into my soul of my childhood. Mother , dad, home on 163rd st, no airconditioner, my brothers and sisters, school, church, friends, must I go on?
Then I remembered that mother and dad had passed away and their remains are inturred at Lithgow. My grandparents on both sides are there with my brother. I just melted.
Memories of that day in 2010 when I recieved the devasting news that a mother and father could hear. Your son has been killed. I just melted.
My hands flew to my breast where I held my son 47 years ago , carassed his hair, kissed his face, held him close to my breast and whispered into his ear, "I love you". I just melted.
So many memories that flooded my heart as my eyes flooded with tears.
The salty mist of the ocean while the winds flow around me was so over whelming the I just melted.
Smells of home, cookies baking, home cooked meals, sunny skies,the breezes always blowing, smells of fresh laundry was just too much. I just melted.
Not being able to see my son as he laid dead in South Carolina was just more that I could handle, I just melted into the most throbbing crying . My husband could not stand it no longer. He told me to "just handle it" which I did. I went to bed. God has been with me through all of the tears, sorrow, holding me up in His everlasting arms. I just melted into His care.
I know that "all things work for good to them that love God" (my phrases) I continue to pray that God will show me what those good things are. I am open to His care. I melted into His care.
1 comment:
Your words had me feeling the same emotions that you were feeling. Tears-big tears are God's way for us to release painful emotions that have lingered for too long. It is amazing how we can cry tears of joy one minute and tears of sadness the next. Tears like laughter is a medicine for both soul and body. You are a very good expressor of words. You could have been an associate preacher with Windell
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